Sunday, July 17, 2011


It is with tear-filled eyes and a very heavy heart that I struggle to write this entry for my blog.

GADGET, my sweet little boy schnauzer and my first schnauzer love, passed away on Wednesday night.

There is almost a strange sense of calm that I feel right now. Even though I was NEVER ever going to be ready to say good bye to Gadget, he has had no quality of life for over a month now and it has been so very difficult to watch his decline and knowing there was absolutely nothing more I could do for him than keep him comfortable and love him with all that I had.

He fought with all he had in his weakening little body but it was finally his time to go.  He went peacefully in his sleep, in his own little bed next to mine, in our home.  He was with those who loved him, both human and canine.

Gadget filled my life with so many wonderful memories that I am so grateful for.  I know that I was blessed to have shared his little life with him, even though it was not for long enough.  His passing has left me with such an emptiness and while with time that will pass, I will never ever forget him and special moments in time that he shared with our family.

Life will carry on.  But it will never be the same without Gadget here to share it with.  He truly was a devoted friend who loved me unconditionally.

Until we meet again, my sweet little puppy ...

                               ... sending you puppy hugs in heaven.


Dina said...

I am so sorry,this brought tears to my eyes. It is never easy to lose a pet they become like our children. big hugs! Dina

mforquer said...

Bonnie - I'm so sorry for your loss...our pets have always been some of our best family members for sure...thinking of you today.

Teresa said...

Oh Bonnie I'm so sorry to read this, he looks such a sweet little dog, I'm sure you must miss him but he was very lucky to have you to give him the love you gave him, bless him.
Take care and hope we see you on here again soon.
Luv & hugs Teresa xx

Lee said...

Oh Bonnie,wish i could give you a Big Hug hun.Nothing we say will help i know,but honestly you know there are lots of us who understand what you are feeling.I am thinking of you.Gadget what a brilliant name,he sure looked a lovely dog who obviously loved his mummy.Lots of happy memories for you.Love n hugs.xxxxxx

Curt in Carmel said...

Bonnie, I'm just simply heartbroken. I had to start and stop reading your post because I couldn't read through the tears. . .As Lee said above, nothing anyone can say will change or soften the hurt. I know exactly how you feel, and I sometimes even feel the hurt looking at my own boys knowing someday I will be without them and it rips my heart out. I only hope that they pass in their sleep when the time comes. It is way better than having to take them to have them put down. I hope I never have to do that again. I wish I was close so that I could give you a big hug. I know that little sweet Gadget had the best life a pup could possibly have and he was a very lucky little guy to have an amazing Mom like you. I'm so sorry sweetie. . .I wish I could take the pain away. . .Curt

Marie Gamber said...

Words cannot express the sadness I feel for your loss! I have adopted older disability labs over the past 9 years and you just never fill the place they left in your heart. Thinking of you Bonnie.

Heide said...

I am always sorry to hear of the lost of our furry friends, they are such a big part of our lives. This poem helped me a bit, I resisted at first and then I got so many links to it when I lost my dear Sophie. May it bring you some comfort.

Hugs, Heide

Curt in Carmel said...

Checking in on you and wondering how you are. . .Just wanted you to know that I was thinking about you. Hugs, Curt

Marie Gamber said...

Checking in again Bonnie. Just wanted you know know your cyber friends are here!

Myrna said...

I share your pain. Our furbabies mean so much to us and bring so much joy into our lives. Our furbaby kitty just left us a month ago and so my heart is heavy for you.

Curt in Carmel said...

Checking in once again to let you know I'm thinking about you. Hope you are doing OK. . . Know you are in my thoughts. Hugs, Curt

doverdi said...

I just read your posting & am so sorry for your loss. I know how heartbroken you must be. Although time heals the broken heart, nothing will ever make you forget him or how much love and happiness he brought to your life and vice versa. He was a lucky dog. I am so sorry....Diane

Marie Gamber said...

thinking of you today, Bonnie!

Curt in Carmel said...

Stopping by to say hello. . .hoping you are doing OK. Miss seeing your work, but so appreciate you coming to see me. . .Hugs, Curt

Christy Q said...

Bonnie, I know I'm late in reading this but I wanted to send my condolences on the loss of your little boy, Gadget. May the memories you have continue to warm your heart. Our pets are the most faithful companions one could ask for and they give us so much for the little that they need from us such as food, shelter, water and love.

Lynnette said...

Thinking of you. I just came from a friend's blog who had you address and I started to admire your beautiful work, it is very pretty. But i also noticed a another love of yours for your pets. We have cats and a dog and have just recently has to euthanize our sweet, Sweetie. A true fighter who could not fight no longer. It still hurts and it is now almost 2 months since her passing. We miss her a lot but now that she does not have to fight any longer.
I hope things are going well with you.